Wednesday, June 28
I need a break
3rd year has been pretty hectic. I've only been in school for less than a month but I feel like I've studied for a long time already. I wake up at 5am and arrive school about 6am. I start to study things that I didn't study the day before. FYI, that's a lot! School starts and end by 3pm. After that, we go straight to the covered courts to train for volleyball. We end the tiring work out by 7:30PM. I go home through Juno. I usually stop by Red Ribbon or Pancake House or maybe, if I'm lucky enough, at home. I arrive usually by 8pm and eat for thirty minutes. I study from 9 to 1am. Then I go to sleep. This has been pretty much my routine everyday! And I'm so tired of it. It's all going to change tomorrow.
Once the varsity try-outs result comes out, I'll stop going there and I will distribute 5 hours of my time in sleeping and doing homework. Why you ask? Because I definitely won't pass the try-outs. For me, its not really a bummer because 5 hours can really change a lot in my routine. Before I only study El Filibusterismo and then go to sleep. Now, I have time to do my other subjects. Especially now that the mid term grades are coming out. I'm scared with my midterm marks. Particularly, FILIPINO! El Fili is a not-so-hard novel but the quiz questions are so detailed. Even though the quiz is open-booked, I can't find the answers.
With a lot more pocket of time, I'll be able to relax, have fun. Less stress in my schedule because Friday, Saturday, Sundays I have choir practice so there's nothing I can do about it. I love my choir!
What a big break for me not to have varsity trainings. I just wish all the others good luck. If ever I make it through (which I reallly really really x10000000 doubt), I don't think I would even continue. I just realize what a burden for me to continue with nothing in effect. I'll do a lot of things just for nothing.
I really need a break! I do a lot of things; non-stop. I don't even spend my time to relax and take a time to blog. It is a rare occasion that I blog because I only have 2 homeworks to do. Which is such a miracle. I don't think I'll be able to study for the Math Long Test tonight. Probably, tomorrow morning. I need to slow down and rest. Me, being so busy, has affected a lot. And I don't need to list them down because a lot of you know it by now.
I really have to go now! There's a lot of things to do like the El Fili thing. Sooooo tired from my last practice but it was all worth it! Good luck to you guys! Hopefully I would blog someday. Hehehehe. Bye!!!
Once the varsity try-outs result comes out, I'll stop going there and I will distribute 5 hours of my time in sleeping and doing homework. Why you ask? Because I definitely won't pass the try-outs. For me, its not really a bummer because 5 hours can really change a lot in my routine. Before I only study El Filibusterismo and then go to sleep. Now, I have time to do my other subjects. Especially now that the mid term grades are coming out. I'm scared with my midterm marks. Particularly, FILIPINO! El Fili is a not-so-hard novel but the quiz questions are so detailed. Even though the quiz is open-booked, I can't find the answers.
With a lot more pocket of time, I'll be able to relax, have fun. Less stress in my schedule because Friday, Saturday, Sundays I have choir practice so there's nothing I can do about it. I love my choir!
What a big break for me not to have varsity trainings. I just wish all the others good luck. If ever I make it through (which I reallly really really x10000000 doubt), I don't think I would even continue. I just realize what a burden for me to continue with nothing in effect. I'll do a lot of things just for nothing.
I really need a break! I do a lot of things; non-stop. I don't even spend my time to relax and take a time to blog. It is a rare occasion that I blog because I only have 2 homeworks to do. Which is such a miracle. I don't think I'll be able to study for the Math Long Test tonight. Probably, tomorrow morning. I need to slow down and rest. Me, being so busy, has affected a lot. And I don't need to list them down because a lot of you know it by now.
I really have to go now! There's a lot of things to do like the El Fili thing. Sooooo tired from my last practice but it was all worth it! Good luck to you guys! Hopefully I would blog someday. Hehehehe. Bye!!!
hold me now at 9:07 PM
Saturday, June 24
Despodency in the Varsity Try-outs
Probably everybody knows that I didn't pass the Varisty Volleyball Try-outs and for the past few days, I'm still thinking about continuing on Monday. Honestly, I don't want to do anything with the Varsity Volleyball Team after what happened. But some of my friends who actually made it don't want to continue without me. I have to tell something about what happened.
Well, it was a gruelsome try-outs, I must say. I did my very best during the physical fitness part of it. During the ball handling excercise, I even received some compliments from other people who tried out. During the spike-receieve part of the test, Tomie spikes, they receive and we catch the balls. Then Tomie tells the coach that I must be the setter. The coach gave me a try but without being able to play for ages, I didn't compare good enough to the other setters. Then during the recieve part of the test where the coach spikes and I receive, I had a lot of good receives. I even had, I think, the longest rally. And FYI, it was NOT as easy as it seems. He kept on spiking on different directions.
So after 3 hours of doing everything well, for me, the coach makes his picks. He started to name some 2nd year and 1st years. Then he called for JJ and Juno for the 3rd year ones. The slots came less and less until he told us:
Well, it was a gruelsome try-outs, I must say. I did my very best during the physical fitness part of it. During the ball handling excercise, I even received some compliments from other people who tried out. During the spike-receieve part of the test, Tomie spikes, they receive and we catch the balls. Then Tomie tells the coach that I must be the setter. The coach gave me a try but without being able to play for ages, I didn't compare good enough to the other setters. Then during the recieve part of the test where the coach spikes and I receive, I had a lot of good receives. I even had, I think, the longest rally. And FYI, it was NOT as easy as it seems. He kept on spiking on different directions.
So after 3 hours of doing everything well, for me, the coach makes his picks. He started to name some 2nd year and 1st years. Then he called for JJ and Juno for the 3rd year ones. The slots came less and less until he told us:
Kailangan ko ng kaliwete...[people call my name]...[coach looks at me]...Kailangan MATANGKAD
In the end he picked the only remaining left-hander who tried out. I must admit, he didn't have the skills. But, it's his decision anyways. Then he goes on with telling some other shit that I didn't even understand. Inside, I was really insulted.
I remember in the sign of the try-outs [and also in my past post] that you must be 5'8" tall. This very requirement even had me discouraged in trying out. But after a few speeches by Juno, I decided to go through with it. And that very thing was the reason why I was not picked. For me, it will be ok if I didn't pass because I'm not skilled enough for them. But to fail because of not being tall... such BITCHES to do that kind of thing. There are a lot of skilled athletes who even play better than the tallest person in the team. Even though I'm short, I know I can still do a lot for the team. But, I guess, the coach was really too IGNORANT in choosing his players. That's probably why they had NO wins in the UAAP. They even lost to NU in 3 straight sets. Not to put NU down, but really! Please, such a disgrace. Handling the HS team is different. For 13+ straight years, the Ateneo Juniors Volleyball Team made it to the Finals. Its because they had skill. Like Dulu, he's not that tall but he delivered a lot of points for the team.
This is probably the only reason why I wished that they didn't change the coach. The former HS coach knows how to pick his players. Unlike this one, such a loser!
On Monday, they will be continuing their try-outs and I still really don't know what to pick. My mind tells me why bother trying out again to face rejection twice. The other tells me to go for the sake of Juno and JJ who are discouraged to join because I'm not part of it. I'm leaning on the not going thing, but who knows. I still need a good reason to continue on Monday. If anyone wants to step up, just post it on my tagboard.
I have to go guys. I need a lot of rest because I'm sick. I'll post again after studying tomorrow.
TO JUNO:
Please, for my sake, join the team. Go on without me. I heard about you parents not allowing you until I join the team. What good is it if I'm there? Nothing good comes out of it. And to tell you the truth, you need to go on. It is your time! CARPE DIEM! Seize the day! Grab the opportunity while it is still there. Don't waste it all because I'm not part of it. You're lucky you were picked to use this training to improve on yourself. When I'm not there, you will definitely gain respect for the others who were not picked. I know your bummed out about the coach's picks, me too. But it's something we have to go on and forget. God has a reason why I didn't pass the team. And God has a reason to put you there. So don't waste this opportunity! Please continue on without me. I know you will have a great time and I wish you the luck! You will do well without me. I know that for a fact. So, have fun!
I remember in the sign of the try-outs [and also in my past post] that you must be 5'8" tall. This very requirement even had me discouraged in trying out. But after a few speeches by Juno, I decided to go through with it. And that very thing was the reason why I was not picked. For me, it will be ok if I didn't pass because I'm not skilled enough for them. But to fail because of not being tall... such BITCHES to do that kind of thing. There are a lot of skilled athletes who even play better than the tallest person in the team. Even though I'm short, I know I can still do a lot for the team. But, I guess, the coach was really too IGNORANT in choosing his players. That's probably why they had NO wins in the UAAP. They even lost to NU in 3 straight sets. Not to put NU down, but really! Please, such a disgrace. Handling the HS team is different. For 13+ straight years, the Ateneo Juniors Volleyball Team made it to the Finals. Its because they had skill. Like Dulu, he's not that tall but he delivered a lot of points for the team.
This is probably the only reason why I wished that they didn't change the coach. The former HS coach knows how to pick his players. Unlike this one, such a loser!
On Monday, they will be continuing their try-outs and I still really don't know what to pick. My mind tells me why bother trying out again to face rejection twice. The other tells me to go for the sake of Juno and JJ who are discouraged to join because I'm not part of it. I'm leaning on the not going thing, but who knows. I still need a good reason to continue on Monday. If anyone wants to step up, just post it on my tagboard.
I have to go guys. I need a lot of rest because I'm sick. I'll post again after studying tomorrow.
TO JUNO:
Please, for my sake, join the team. Go on without me. I heard about you parents not allowing you until I join the team. What good is it if I'm there? Nothing good comes out of it. And to tell you the truth, you need to go on. It is your time! CARPE DIEM! Seize the day! Grab the opportunity while it is still there. Don't waste it all because I'm not part of it. You're lucky you were picked to use this training to improve on yourself. When I'm not there, you will definitely gain respect for the others who were not picked. I know your bummed out about the coach's picks, me too. But it's something we have to go on and forget. God has a reason why I didn't pass the team. And God has a reason to put you there. So don't waste this opportunity! Please continue on without me. I know you will have a great time and I wish you the luck! You will do well without me. I know that for a fact. So, have fun!
hold me now at 10:56 PM
Tuesday, June 20
Missing Volleyball
Sorry for the late post, I have been totally caught up in my classes! It's sooo hard! Third year is 1 million times harder than Second year! I hate it! Tons and tons of HW! Quizzes here and there. I even failed a few of those. Pressured? YES! Scared? YES! A whole lot of people are really pressuring me to reach the honor level again. There's my parents, Star, Matti, some schoolmates; they always really bug me to study sooo hard (not that I'm not studying hard). There's also this pressure to maintain my grades while in the choir. I'm not that good in balancing things. When I was in Grade 7, my grades really plunged when I joined the varsity team. So, it adds to the pressure. Then, another thing that makes me more pressured. The varsity volleyball try-outs!
Ok, I wanted to join the varsity try-outs ever since I started high school. I really wanted to join during 1st year but I decided not to since I must get to adjust while starting high school. Second year, I didn't join because I heard that the coach is soo mean! And he really looks mean, so I got scared. Now in Third year, I am again discouraged to join the varsity team because of the work to be done in Third year. I am so scared! There are a lot of quizzes and stuff. Hopefully, I would be clear in my decision before the actual try-outs come out.
After over 3 months of not playing volleyball, I got to play! I know I played volleyball during the choir outing, but it's not really volleyball. This time, I'm playing with people who know a thing or two about volleyball. No offense! If only it was indoor volleyball during the choir outing, I would've delivered more points. I'm not used to playing in the beach. Anyways, after PE, we played volleyball. It was fun! I got to improve on my spikes! No one actually blocked me. Hehehehe, well, there were some but it went out. I even got to block Gian twice! Hehehehehe. Solo blocks, I might add. I got to improve on my quick setting ability. I got to play with the varsity players which totally was a one-time deal to show off my skills. I missed volleyball very much!!!!
Now, I really wanted to try-out. But when I saw the thing that said that you must be at least 5"8 to join the team, I was insulted! What do you want more: a person who totally does not know how to play but is tall or a person who is really skilled but is short? Being short is no disadvantage. There are a lot of people who are not that tall but really play good volleyball. The Japanese Women's team are not that tall when compared to the other players but they made it up the rankings. This is to show that Ateneo Volleyball team is really not after the skill anymore, it's all about being tall. What good can you get from being tall? It's such an insult. They're just good for blocks.. nothing more! You don't have to be tall to be a setter or a server. You just need the skills. I personally was insulted when I saw that. Because of that, even less people will be trying-out. Height requirements are just for teams that really can't do anything more to win. Well, I don't want to be a libero. And if ever I become a libero, I'll quit in a heartbeat. It's their loss, not mine. I can join another team anytime. I don't need Ateneo Volleyball Team. Too bad for them. I just wish them good luck! They want to be a tall team with no skill, fine by me.
I have to go! I haven't eaten in hours! Bye!!! I'll post another thing later for sure.
hold me now at 7:05 PM
Saturday, June 17
Friends
I am not your friend. Friends come and go, and I definitely won't do that to you. I guess we are more than friends or even best friends. We are more than that, and I never ever want you to be telling people that we are friends. Cause I'm not. Even though we will be thousands and thousands miles apart, we will still continue what we have. I'm not you friend but I'm your.......
- Star Jimenez
I just remember, just less than a week ago, Star told me that same line. The message was a lot longer than that. It's just a part of her e-mail that she sent me when she left. I guess she was at the airplane during that time. If you guys want to know the continuation of that line, don't bother asking me! I really miss Star so much. She's the best "friend" I ever had. With the exception of Paula and Matti, Star is just the one that I consider as the "love of my life." She makes me happy when I'm sad. She helps me with problems. She is the person I tell my secrets to. It's just something that I have got to live with. She's gone and I'm looking for another Star to share stories and secrets about me, my life, my relationship, everything.
Just recently, not really long ago, we had this outing. And I got to meet a person much like myself; troubled, depressed with love, etc. He began opening up to me. He started sharing things that have been going on in his life. Then, I started telling things about myself, just to even out everything. And we made this pact that we won't tell each other's secrets. But, you know, this pact wasn't strong enough. Though he actually didn't tell my friend about this specific story that I told him, it still hurts because there's this thing as "jokes are half meant." Once he "foolishly" acted telling my friend about the story, I felt the lost of trust. But, still, I have to remember, I shouldn't be telling these sensitive issues to other people. There is no one like Star. She's just a hidden treasure chest. Whatever you say, she'll just keep it to herself. I guess she's just one in a million. But oh, well. Life has got to go on like usual.
I know I do the same thing to him. I tried to act out that I told my friend about a story about him. But, it's not as personal as this one. It's totally personal and that my friend was involved in the story. It isin't the right time. I realized that. It's definitely not the right time. I should fix my relationship first before I tell my friend the story. That's how personal it is. And to those who actually get the story already, you will know how personal it really is.
I hope that this thing will be over. I'm not really mad at him. He's just... something. He thinks I'm mad at him, I'm not. It's just, I can't talk to someone after that same person did something so foul that I was hurt by that. So, I'm sorry whoever you are. I hope you get to read this post. It's nothing against you. I'm just telling how I feel. And probably, you know how personal it means to me.
I have to go guys, we have to sing tomorrow. See you! I'll post something tomorrow as well. Bye!!!
hold me now at 11:51 PM
Thursday, June 15
Movie Survey!
I got a lot of time to take a survey.
( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
( ) My First Mister
( ) The Virgin Suicides
Total: 3/11
( ) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total: 5/12
( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 8/11
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total: 6/10
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total: 9/10
(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) King Kong
Total: 6/12
(x) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total: 7/14
(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
Total: 5/9
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
(x) the Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total: 9/14
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
Total: 5/13
(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
(x) My Boss' Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total: 7/12
( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) Terminator 2
Total: 6/12
(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) X3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) Cruel Intentions 3
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total: 14/18
( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle
( ) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old-virgin
total: 7/11
97!! yippee!!!
hold me now at 8:34 PM
Monday, June 12
Independence Day Part I
What a way to celebrate Independence Day. We had a gimmick with my choir mates. We planned the whole thing for a week and good thing that the HMTQCC members had no practice scheduled for today. So, we decided on meeting at the Cinemas by 12noon. So I was able to arrive there by 11:50am. Hehehehe. So, I went to the cinemas at first to find no one yet arriving. So I went down to look for cool things to buy.
I entered Rustan's and saw this COOOL Billabong t-shirt. I almost bought it. Except, I just looked at the price tag, I said, "Ate, wag na lang." Hehehehe. It was that expensive. Too expensive for me. I could even buy 2 shirts from Artwork... the most expensive shirts there, I might add. Its a nice shirt, but too rich for my blood.
I also went to Fully Booked and actually wanted to buy this notebook but I remembered that I already bought my notebook. Darn! I went snooping for books and I stumbled upon a book about Adolf Hitler and all about the Holocaust. I remembered that today is our Independence Day. I'll tell you more about that probably tomorrow. So that's alright. Then I received the text from Raymond that they were all there already. So I went to Timezone and I saw them there. Who were there:
1. Raymond
2. Raymond's cousin [don't actualy know his name :D]
3. Dominic
4. Storm
5. Joseph
6. Juilio
7. me..
So we bought ticket for "The Benchwarmers" even though Julio watched it.. as usual. The movie wasn't going to start for an hour so we went to Timezone.
In Timezone, the first thing we did is that we played basketball. I won. hehehehehehe. Julio joined and he lost as well. And then we played Air Hockey. First, I won against Dominic (4-6). Then, I lost to Julio. I won the second round. I think I also won the third round. Then we bought our food. I had to treat ALL of them a drink. Probably because I was the one who invited them. Hehehehe. We watched the movie. It was sooo funny! I love the story. After that, there was still a lot of time left so we went back to Timezone. We watched Julio play "Stacker" it was sooo funny! He almost made it to the Major Prize until he made a mistake. We spent probably P400 just playing that game. Everyone played the game except for Joseph and Raymond's cousin. So it was fun. I didn't even make it to the Minor Prize. Hehehehehehe. Then Storm and I played Time Crisis III. I made it to the 2nd Stage but Storm didn't. After that, we ate.
I had to treat them again because they were about to leave and I am going to be fetched in 2 hours. Just to pass up the time, we ate in Pizza Hut Bistro. This time, we were on a budget! I said that I'm going to treat them P500 and any Peso exceeding that, you have to pay. They accepted it so we ate there. We bought a pizza and fries. The bill was the lowest I had ever! P552 total! I never thought that it would happen. Hehehehe. We left with just 30 mins before I am fetched. Storm, Raymond and his cousin went home already so Joseph, Dominic, Julio and I went back to Timezone. I beat their asses in basketball! Woooh! Except the last one, Joseph's score and mine were even and so I had to leave already. It was a fun day...
Up next, my Independence Day reflection... Bye guys!!!
hold me now at 9:19 PM
Sunday, June 11
Finally Leaving the House
It's been officially a day since I left my house. Its been a tiring day today. First, I woke up extremely early to hear mass. It's been a while since I last heard mass in our parish. It's hard to get used to waking up in the morning and having a quick change of clothes not even fixing my hair and going to our parish. Sadly, it was our priest's last mass in our parish. He'll be moving to Lourdes School of Quezon City and he will be the minister there. So good luck to him. He's a good priest anyways. He wasn't boring unlike some other priests.
After going to mass, I had to sleep. And I woke up 2 hours after and started with my blog again. I had my lunch and they told me that we were going to Greenhills. So I took a bath and changed my clothes. When we left the house, it was raining. We arrived at Greenhills and I accompanied them to buy some bags. After that, we went to my favorite store: e-media. Hehehehehe. I really can't afford the original CDs. Sorry. So I had to buy some pirated ones. I added more CDs to my collection:
1. Josh Groban - Josh Groban
2. New World - Maksim
3. Masters of Chant Chapter 5 - Gregorian Chant
4. Ancora - Il Divo
5. Smooth Escapes - D'Sound
6. Cafe Bossa - Sitti
Bought all 6 for only......P300. Instead of buying only 1 original CD, I bought 6 pirated ones. Hehehehe. This is the Philippines! This is a typical way of life of people who love music. I'm not that rich to buy all original things. Especially in today's time where corruption is leading the country.
Ok. After that, we went around some more and we managed to go to Starbucks. After, we went go Gateway. Not much things to do there. I just accompanied some people go shopping. They are guests from Hawaii. We always have guests from Hawaii. Our house is like a hotel. We welcome a lot of people from Hawaii and we let them stay here until the leave again. Hehehehe.
While in Gateway, I remembered that I am going to Gateway again tomorrow with some choirmates. Darn it! The Ateneans are not coming! 3M boys are said to have a lot of homework and they have to study that's why they didn't come along. Darn!
Anyways, so I while going back home, we managed to encounter a flood. There was even a street which was ssssooooo flooded and there's this car who went through wtih it. So, what happened was that the car was half flooded and I was laughing the whole time. They managed to pass the flooded street and I had fun watching it.
I went home and I finished Chapter 1 of El Filibusterismo!!! Yippee!! 1 down, 5 to go. Ok, I have to continue reading. So, I have to go. Bye!!!!
hold me now at 9:55 PM
Saturday, June 10
New Layout!!!
Yehey! I officially finished my new layout! Kelly Clarkson. FYI: The lines of the header and the signature are lines from her song: You Found Me. I hope you guys like it. I'll be searching other blogs for a link exchange to expand my life so if you want me to link to you, just post a message in my tagboard.
Thanks to Adobe Photoshop, Blogger and Notepad for the layout creation. And Dynamic DHTML Drive for the gradual highlight script.
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I will be posting later about something alright? See you guys! Bye!!!
hold me now at 1:08 PM
Thursday, June 8
Surviving 2 days of School
Hey guys! I'm back. So, 2 days of school finished and 152 more, I think. In those 2 days, I have been through a lot already. I met all my teachers already. People tell me that this set of teachers is good with the exception of others. Hehehehe. I don't know but I think that our teachers this year are good! Some are very nice, some look strict but people tell me that they are really nice once you get to know them. That's what I also thought with Mr. Carvajal last year and Mr. San Pedro and they turned out alright. Ok. Here's my checklist since the start of classes until the end of the week.
2. Talk to at least one teacher out of class.
3. Let them know about my cousin; Ate Thea. Hehehehe
4. Let them know about my other 2 cousins.
7. Pass my first quiz.
11. Take one vain pic.
12. Laugh at my ID picture.
Oh well! I managed to get 6/12 in my checklist. Darn! I'm still too bummed to do some of the others. I can't talk to my new teachers just yet. They are just so scary. Take note, I made this checklist before the start of the school year. I never knew I would do more than 4. I managed 6 which is a lot better.
In the 2 days that I've been in school, here is my checklist:
6. Get a post/jug.
Well, that's pretty much it. I can't remember anymore the other things I wrote in my checklist before. 6/7. Not bad. I never had any intention of getting a post or jug so I'm proud I haven't done that. Ok guys, I have to go! I still have a take-home quiz to do in computer. Bye!!!
hold me now at 10:56 PM
Tuesday, June 6
You'll Never Walk Alone
When you walk, trough the storm, hold your head up high. And don't be afraid of the dark. At the end of the strom, there's a golden sky and a sweet silver song. Walk on through the wind, walk on through the rain. Walk on with hope in your heart.
This song has been inspiring me throughout everything that has been going trough my life. First, about Star leaving to go to the states. That day has been very gloomy. I felt I was really alone. I had no one to share my hurt, my feelings and everything. I just felt sooo lonely. I have a hard time keeping everything to myself. Well, I've been through that for the past 12 years before I met Star. Now, I'm just adjusting to my old lifestyle. She's been gone already for the past 4 days and I already miss her so much. This has been pretty much one of the reasons I haven't gone online. I'm still so depressed and my feelings are just running wild. Hearing stories from friends about their sobbing love lives and how they cope and try to live as normal as they can, I am inspired to do the same.
And second, the start of classes tomorrow. Am I sure that I'm ready to meet back with my classmates and continue studying? After what I have been going through, will I be able to be as efficient as I have done before? Am I really ready to face my biggest past alone. Having no one to share my feelings, am I really ready to face them alone?
I'm back to the cage that I'm in again. After somewhat years of being free and happy to live, I'm back to where I've been in the start. Well it's something to be used to again. My feelings just kept to myself again and there's no one to share it with. There's not another Star that is just the trust-worthy to keep my secrets and feelings with. I may not tell all my feelings here, I'll still find a way to release all my anger and depression.
Everyday, when I wake up, I will just think that Star is always beside me, lending an ear and saying the things that I should do to go back to normal. Hey. I know I am not alone. And I don't intend to. There's still someone out there ready to listen and give me advice and that is... God.
hold me now at 8:41 PM
Sunday, June 4
Controversies
Some things are best to kept hidden when no one cared or cares about it. Some things are meant to be kept hidden especially if it is about another person.
Words of Wisdom by Ryan Sordan
Why are there such things as controversies? It will not only ruin your friendship, but it will also ruin the way people look at you. Once you have an issue or something like it, it will definitely change a certain part of your life. It will affect your friendship someway or another. It will never be the same thing ever again.
But what's different in the story is that, the person who spreads out these rumors is the person who is the least person that is close to you. That person feels that since his "not-so-good friend" is in the spotlight, he will do everything to steal the spotlight from that person. He would tell lies and a whole lot of rumors just to get off the spotlight. He would feel as if he and the person involed were really close and that he knew everything about the person involved. This is really sickening. A person who acts to be your friend just to share or even grab the attention away really bugs me. And the thing that really hurts is that that guy's rumor was actually believed by the people that he told the rumor to. Now, everything is a mess. It's hard to fix a rumor, you know.
Now, what did that have to do with me? Hmm... There's this person I know, who is really bugging me. And because of a simple gesture, that person acts as if we were close friends. And now, that person is actually spreading rumors about something that concerns me. Its hard to fix because that person has a lot of friends, and I mean a lot. And it's hard to fix those kinds of things because they wont believe you; they would just believe what their friend says.
This kind of things really makes it hard for something to be united. Everytime a rumor gets started, someone... and I mean someone will get hurt. Hence, there will be no unity in a group. I just wish that everything will turn out fine once I clear my name. But the thing is? What is the controversy about me? I'm not even sure what those people are telling about me. I don't know who to believe. But all I know is that, the truth will really come at the end of all this. And that, everything will be resolved. Of course, there will still be that less trust in that person.
hold me now at 1:19 AM
Friday, June 2
Goodbye Without Actually Saying Goodbye
You're all that I've ever known. When you smile on my face, all I see is your glow. You turned my life around. You picked me up when I was down.
Waaaaahhh!!! Why does this always happen when I just happen to be close to someone? I met you like years ago, even before her. We became friends. We were even more than friends. We became really close siblings. We shared each other's stories. I told you about my life; having someone, losing, recovering, loving again. You know all about it. It took me such a long time to realize that you were pretty much the closest friend I ever had. We never fought. You were always right beside me. You were just one call away everytime something happens. You were my sister. You were my shoulder. I became one of your closest guy friends. I listened to your stories about you and your friend. I became your best friend. You were mine too. We were practically inseparable. You became the little sister that I never had. I just wanted the best for my little sister...everything, I would do for you.. just to make you happy.. like what a big brother should do to you.
Does it really have to end like this? It's really depressing. You could've told me earlier. I could've said goodbye properly. Not just a simple Y!M message. I know that saying goodbye is the hardest thing you have to go through... I know. But, if you do it right, then, you would have no worries. There's no wondering why. There will be no regrets. But, there's nothing that we could do. We can't turn back time.
All I want to tell you is that, I'll miss you very much. You have become my best friend and one of the most adorable girl I've met my whole life. I wish you good luck in America. Hope that you won't forget me. Cause I'll definitely won't forget you. You changed my life. Without you, I would've probably been a rebel already. Hehehehe. I'll just look at the bright side and that it is for the best. And all I wish for you is the best. Hope you could visit me. Don't forget that! I'll miss you. I love you my little sister!!!! Muah!!! Bye!!!
hold me now at 11:48 PM
Thursday, June 1
Big Surprise
Yesterday, it was time to get our textbooks. I woke up early and we went to Ateneo. When we arrived, I joined with Juno to sign up for our Immersion. We went with GK at Payatas Trece on August 9-10. It will be fun because I will have a lot of friends when we go there. After that, we went to get our textbooks. It took us a while but eventually, we got there. Then we left. I really thought we were going home already because I really left my stuff for the choir at the house. And I was thinking that after the textbooks thing, I will be going home and go straight to Immaculate Conception Cathedral. But, my dad made a turn and we went to SM North Edsa. I was like, "Why are we here?". Then they told me that they're going to buy me a new cellphone! I really can't believe it because I was joking the other day about buying a new phone. I didn't know that they really meant it. So it was really unexpected!!! And I was excited in a sense. Hehehehehe. We searched the whole Annex building to look for a N70 phone. And we did, eventually. I left my things for the choir practice at home and there was no more time left so I went straight to Cubao.
Once I arrived, Manay was there to tell me that they really were not able to find the phone. It was ok. And the other kids asked me stuff bout the phone. I just told them that it's alright and God has a reason for it. And we continued the practice. It was very rigorous. And I'm starting to like it. The other youth girls were called to practice some songs with us and we had a lot of fun after. And we were just so close. We are like best friends already. I don't know with the other members but hopefully, they will be able to catch up. I just still have a lot of stories that I found out but I can't because of the code of silence. Hehehehe. So, that's probably it for today. I keep on blogging every once a while. But once school starts, I'll blog more often.
hold me now at 9:47 PM
