Thursday, August 31

One Last Time!

Only 1 day left to go till the end of the 1st Term! I never thought that I would be this nervous. This term is the most nerve wrecking term I've ever been in. I'm at the brink of my downfall. Kumbaga sa parabola, pababa pa lang ako. But parabolas tend to go back up again. So I'm really wishing that the parabola would go back up soon! One more day... its all over! Regrets? Hell, yes! But, I never regretted being on the varsity team, or in the youth choir.

Yes. I don't regret any of those. I know those are the reasons why I haven't been doing everything but those are something really close to me. Volleyball and singing are just two of my favorite things to do. My thanks to the Hail Mary Youth Choir and the Ateneo Varsity Volleyball Team.

1) To the Hail Mary Youth Choir: I really want to thank them for the support that they have been giving me in my studies and helping me improve in terms of my singing. I really to thank them for the friendship that they have shared with me this whole year. Its almost a year ago that I first stepped in the choir scene. I thank them for the fun moments. And it seems that if ever I am down when I enter ICC, they are there to cheer me up. And I thank all of them. Julio Datu, Raymond Muyot, Dominic De Leon, Joseph Lorenzo, Storm Sarmiento, the S1s and S2s in the youth choir like Pat Luspo and Lala Sarmiento and of course, Manay and Ate Kim. Thanks to you guys! And syempre, puwede ba mawala yung mga Atenista ng boys choir? Hehehehe. Thanks to you guys na rin. As if I would forget our "father" and "mother" in the choir. Ay! Ate at Kuya lang pala! Hehehe. Ate Thess and Kuya Jude Roldan. Salamat po!

2) Ateneo High School Varisty Volleyball Team: I would never expect me saying Thank You to them. First of all, I didn't actually pass during the first picks of the coach. I wasn't in the list. Then, all drama broke loose. You probably know about that if you actually read my posts before. I kept on going and what happened? I made the libero (starting lineup, I might add). I know, I told you that I would quit if I became a libero. But I would never expect it to be this tough. I came to the try outs to improve on my skill because people keep on telling me to try out. So I gave it a shot. And I promise them that I would not let them down. So, tuloy ang laban!

To continue my sobbing thank yous to the AHSVT, thanks for the time and effort to make Him happy. Hahahaha. OMG. Thou shall not take the name of the Lord in vain. Sorry po. Though varsity trainings are such a pain in the butt, literally, I thank you guys. Kung hindi sa inyo, hindi ko matututunan ang patience at nag-improve naman ako kahit papaano. Hay. Even though I'm a bit bitter with the coach, at least, I learn something from him. Hindi naman lahat puro paghihirap. He's like a dad, he wants the best from his sons (which is us) and he wants us to be successful and the only way to do that is to teach what he knows to us so that we would not make the same mistakes over and over. Am I right or am i right? I do make a point. And I thank the whole team for everything. Ed Ortega, Juno Gutierrez, JJ Asban, Gian Torres, Kuya Pao Torralba, Negra Mae (hehehe!), Tomie Rivera, Neil Flores, Ken Pessumal, JP Pareja, Ram Gatan, Gelo Caancan, JB Ruiz and those who I'm not really close to, James, Chino, JC, and the college players who visit us and train with us. Thanks again.

Wow! Nagmukha namang aalis na ako. No I will not. Each day makes me proud to be in the Youth Choir and in the Volleyball Team. I'm in that point that I am about to be appreciative of the gifts that I have and how I nurture myself to grow. Ang lalim noh?! Well, that's just me. I'm being thankful for what I have. Only 1/3 of the year is done. There's still more to do, and even more challenges to face. And I hope, these people will never hold me back or stop me from making my dreams come true. THANKS GUYS!!!

Wednesday, August 30

Pressure in the Exams

I finally had time to rest from my stressful studies for the exams. This has been one of the most nerve-wrecking exams that I ever took in High School. Because, in this exam, my fate lies here. Its a matter of life or death now. My grades lie on this week. Almost all of my grades this term are in danger and I am so scared to fail a subject. Filipino: 77.2 and a single fail in this exam might give me a D in the card. The other subjects, I'm not really sure yet. I'm also scared about Science and English. I'm not really sure if I did a good job during the whole term. I still haven't adjusted much for the 3rd Year Pressure. I haven't really done everything that I can do and as a result, I fail the long tests and even simple quizzes. I haven't really done what I can do. And so, I have to work even double that I do for the exams. And the pressure of passing is really starting to make an effect when I'm answering my exam. I work really hard this past week. I read every chapter in the book for the AP exam. I studied everything that is there about the Ibong Mandaragit. I even studied every long test and ever quiz there is to study in Math. And the effect on the exam? Full of nothings! All my mistakes there are probably careless. I haven't lost hope or anything. Its just I feel so stupid. And now, I have a lot to do just to pass. Aaaaah! I want this madness to end!!! I totally promise. I would have the same attitude that I did during the exam and I wish that it will result in a better grade. So, pray for me that I would pass all my subjects. Wah!

Tuesday, August 22

I Hate My Coach Today Because...

Every volleyball practice, I'll really try my best to make this post: I hate my coach today because.. This is where I'll put all my madness in our coach. Ok Game!

I HATE MY COACH TODAY BECAUSE:

1)He made us wait for him. Its true! We waited for him for a not-so-long time before he arrived. Didn't he know that practices start at 4PM?! He even told so himself! He's the coach! He needs to be early to manage the things coaches usually do. He gives out intructions, you know.

2)He made us wait for the quick spikers to do whatever. They are not the only players, you know. What was the warm up for if we are gonna get cooled down because of waiting for the quick spikers. There are 5 or 6 quick spikers and 2 setters and each of those spikers would have to spike in the middle, left, right, and extreme right side of the court. I hate resting just after warming up. There are 13+ members and he is just training the 6 players which are not all in the first six + libero! In effect, the exercise after that wherein we (liberos) have to recieve the ball for the setters, I had a hard time getting back my rhythm.

3)He made us look for the ball instead of having a practice game. Instead of training the first 6 + libero vs the others, he made us look for the missing balls. Let me talk in Filipino first: Imbes na maglaro kami at mag-improve yung game namin, pinahanap sa amin yung bola. Eh, pwede namang hanapin yun after training diba? As if it would make a difference finding the ball at that moment from finding the ball after training because we were the only ones left in the covered courts, again.

4)He gave us a hard time in the leg exercises. I hate that leg excercises. We are just teens, you know! We easily get tired. We're tired from school then you even give us a harder time in training. And when we arrive in our homes we go straight to bed and don't study?! That leg excercise was just brutal. Sana man lang, pakaunti - konti lang.

5)He made me (almost) bitter after I talked to him after practice. I told him that I will not go to practice on Thursday because of the Math and Science long tests the following day. Then his reply, "Ganyan naman parati eh. Edi wag ka na lang pumunta. Ako naman ang sisisihin kapag bumagsak ka." Well, duh! I'm a STUDENT-athlete. Even from the compound word, student comes first and I must focus more on my studies than volleyball. If I need to study for a long test, I must not go to the training. I must study hard! This is the last long test before the exams so I must pull my grades back up again. I hate failing in Math and Science! So, I must not really go.

Well, these are just some of the things that I hated the coach today. There are still stuff like the running excercise after the leg excercise. There is still the mean look on his face when we were at the vending machine. Wah! I hope I can post again later. I'll be probably posting on what happened today... which was a good day. See yah!

Saturday, August 19

New Layout

Hey guys! Sorry for not blogging that often. Exams are comming up and I have to do a lot of projects which are all due next week. I have a total of 3 days left to do all projects so I have to make most every time I have left. So, I have a new layout! At last. Well, this one is different from all the other layouts because for the first time, I didn't do the layout. You are probably wondering how did I do the new layout when I'm busy. Well. I didn't do it. Its just a layout I found and liked. And it really speaks to me in a way because the theme talks about partying. And I really miss partying with my friends. It has been a long time since I went out with my friends. So, I'm really eager to go out. After exams probably. I'm not sure. But most likely, I'll go on a gimmick very soon! I really miss gimmicks!!!

In other news, thank God! No game today! Because it is the exam week of Lourdes School Mandaluyong, the team that was supposed to face us today. Because of the cancelling of the game, I have a lot of time to do the projects. I'll be out the whole day because I had to have a choir practice with the Hail Mary Children's Choir at the Angelo King Auditorium later in the afternoon. And I think it will take all day. So? What projects are due on Tuesday:

1) Filipino Hatid
In the Filipino Hatid, I'm going to pour everything I've got. So far, I did all the work. No thanks to my 10 other group members... well except for Vincent and Paolo Sibulo. The others, wala kayong kwenta! I did the whole thing by myself. They didn't even revise their own hatid. That's why I'm furious at them! They are so lazy! Because I'm so desperate to get a high mark at this project, I had no choice to take it. Too bad for them because I won't even revise their works. Their grade will be the one to perish, not mine. The presentation part of the project has been already planned out. And the title has been made, "Ang Kislap ng Estrelya" which in english means, "The Glow of Stars" which symbolizes the hidden stars in space that make up one whole galaxy. Without these stars, a story can't be formed.

2) Religion Powerpoint
In the religion powerpoint, I had a hard time deciding on stuff. Mr. Pavia didn't explain the project well and I had a lot of questions. I don't know where to put the guide questions. I'm having a hard time placing the contents in because I don't even know if my answers are correct. I need to see other people's work to find out if I'm on the right path. And another problem? The second disk of Bagong Buwan didn't work so I had to rely on the sources that I read. As of what I watched, I liked the movie. It really speaks about the war of the Christians and the Muslims.

3) Lab Report
Wah! I really didn't get the lab experiment we did yesterday. Since I was pressed for time and I really didn't know what I was doing, I didn't get the results that I thought I would get. My lab notebook was literally blank! I didn't put any data in it. I don't know what I was supposed to do. So, in effect, I don't know what to put in the lab report on Tuesday.

4) English Monologue
Well, this one I like the most. I am able to see the life of Atlas. I will play the role of Altas on Tuesday. I still have to read about Atlas' life and what costume I'm going to wear for it. Among all of the projects, this is my favorite and I'm so excited to do it.

5) R.A. 1.4
This report and the lab report are pretty much the same. The experiment I did for the lab report applies in the R.A. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do. Since the data I had are BLANK! I have no choice but to do some magic. I really need to get a high grade in the R.A. to get back at the Chem LT#2. I'm so nervous!

6) Computer Powerpoint
This is not actually a project but a take home quiz. I wanted to finish this as soon as possible so that I don't have to worry about it anymore. We had to do a commercial using powerpoint. No videos allowed. Well, how can we do that?! It's so frustrating! I had all this and no time for the powerpoint. I don't even know when I'm going to do it. Oh how I wish I were 10 persons right now!

Well, these are just some of the projects due next week. But what about the LONG TESTS for next week? Here's just a list:

1) Chemisty LT #3
At least I have a chance to catch up after my 33/50 grade in the LT2. I don't like to get a D in the card. Well, who does? Chemistry has been hell to me this past few weeks especially Solubility. I don't get a word that he's saying! To make matters worse that it already is, it's a problem solving type of lesson. So, I'm pretty much dead!

2) Math LT#4
Yes, you heard me right! Long Test number 4! I never thought it was possible. But it did happen! WaH! But in a good way, I would balance this with my horrible 39/50 long test number 3. Hopefully I would get the lessons. As of now, isosceles triangles are a bit confusing but I'm trying my best to make it work.

Ok. I already have to go continue the Filipino Hatid. I'm still on the Hatid. Here's my schedule for the weekend:

Saturday: Filipino Hatid (Finish!)
Sunday: Religion Project (Finish!)
Monday (no classes): English monologue (Finish Costume and speech!)

So, hopefully, I would be able to finish all by then! I have to go! Bye! See you soon!

Sunday, August 13

Mah Weekly Schedule

I'm truly busy everyweek. I need to rest, seriously!

Monday: PE of hell!
Tuesday: Varsity Volleyball Practice
Wednesday: Choir Practice
Thursday: Varsity Volleyball Practice
Friday: Varsity Volleyball Practice / Choir Practice
Saturday: Choir Practice
Sunday: Choir Practice

Good thing Monday is just PE and I can rest but the rest are just really tiring!
Waaaahh!! I need some rest. People, help me in my projects! I have loads to do! So tiring!!!!! Bye!!

I Miss Matti

That's me in the corner. That's me on the spotlight, losing my religion. Trying to keep up with you. And I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I said too much. I thought I heard you laughing. I thought that I heard you sing. I thought that I saw you change. That was just a dream to try, cry. Just a dream. Just a dream.
Losing my Religion - R.E.M.

This song has no connection to my topic for today. I just felt like putting it there cause it really has been my theme song for quite a while. I don't know why. I just feel soooo sad, depressed, low of myself for days now. I just don't feel I have not yet put all of my effort in my studies. I'm just a regular member of the class again unlike during 2nd year where I was usually in the top 2 of the class. Not to be so mayabang but it's been such a bummer getting failing long tests and stuff. I never expected to get such low grades from my quizzes. Is it because of the varsity practices? Maybe. Because last year, I had choir practices and that didn't interfere with my studies. I even got honors when I was in the choir. But when I joined the team, I really don't know what happened!

Just to move that thing aside, I miss my dear loved-one for such a long time. She already moved to somewhere near her school because her dad got relocated again. So she has to move. And I miss her very much! We've been planning to go out but still, it has been always planning then ending up not going because of something important that I or sometimes she has to attend to. So we've been pretty busy. She moved to a better school, I must say and that as a late enrollee, I must admit she has a lot to do to catch up on her studies and I respect her for that. I miss Matti so much!! I'm currently listening to Bossa Nova songs. Its raining outside and I can feel the emotion in my room. Its full of drama and lots more. Waaaahh!!! Matti!!!

I'll post something different in my next post in about five minutes alright. Bye!

Sunday, August 6

Hell Term

In the next days before the end of the term, here is my checklist of my things to do:

1) Pistambayan decors
2) Filipino LT
3) AP Written Output
4) AP Powerpoint
5) Religion Website (Project)
6) Volleyball Games
7) Choir practices
8) Choir concert
9) Religion LT
10) Math Project
11) R.A. 1.3
12) R.A. 1.4

As you can see, I still have a lot of things to do. And if anyone cares to give a support, a good luck or you can do it is all it takes. 3rd Year is really different. Especially if you have a lot of extra curricular activities. And I really mean a lot. Wish me luck guys. I already have laryngitis already. I can't speak that well and as loud. I really need some rest. People help me!! This list will add or lessen as the days come by. So stop by every now and then. See you! Bye!