Friday, May 5

Summer Dilemma

This summer has its own ups and downs. And for the past few days, I have been thinking about some things that I said before. Let's start. At the start of the Summer Enrichment Program, there was this day dedicated to get to meet your classmates. So, there was this introduction. He told us to state our name, nickname, age, school, and say if we are taken or not taken. I was shocked actually when I heard this and I really don't know what to say. I was really going back and fourth about it and I decided to say "not taken". It took me a long time for this to sink in. If I would have said that I was taken [which is true], then people would really come up and tease about it. So I think that I did the right thing even though its not really the truth. I don't want to be given the impression as "the boy who has a girlfriend". It's not because I am not proud of her. It's just that I wanted to be known as a student, not as someone who is in a relationship. I wanted to be known behind my own personal life.

And another dilemma happened during my Chem class. Before the lesson started, it was probably a way to check attendance, you must tell the first name of your girlfriend or a person that you are courting. Another big dilemma for me. I really don't know if it's the right time to tell the people especially some of my classmates in SEP are my actual classmates during the school year. Its not the right time! I told myself and I told them, "none". Part of me wanted to say her name because I loved her and some of my classmates know about her. I really don't know what will come out next. I have some regrets about telling those lies about me but I must learn to know when is the right time and I guess, it's not.