Sunday, August 13

I Miss Matti

That's me in the corner. That's me on the spotlight, losing my religion. Trying to keep up with you. And I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I said too much. I thought I heard you laughing. I thought that I heard you sing. I thought that I saw you change. That was just a dream to try, cry. Just a dream. Just a dream.
Losing my Religion - R.E.M.

This song has no connection to my topic for today. I just felt like putting it there cause it really has been my theme song for quite a while. I don't know why. I just feel soooo sad, depressed, low of myself for days now. I just don't feel I have not yet put all of my effort in my studies. I'm just a regular member of the class again unlike during 2nd year where I was usually in the top 2 of the class. Not to be so mayabang but it's been such a bummer getting failing long tests and stuff. I never expected to get such low grades from my quizzes. Is it because of the varsity practices? Maybe. Because last year, I had choir practices and that didn't interfere with my studies. I even got honors when I was in the choir. But when I joined the team, I really don't know what happened!

Just to move that thing aside, I miss my dear loved-one for such a long time. She already moved to somewhere near her school because her dad got relocated again. So she has to move. And I miss her very much! We've been planning to go out but still, it has been always planning then ending up not going because of something important that I or sometimes she has to attend to. So we've been pretty busy. She moved to a better school, I must say and that as a late enrollee, I must admit she has a lot to do to catch up on her studies and I respect her for that. I miss Matti so much!! I'm currently listening to Bossa Nova songs. Its raining outside and I can feel the emotion in my room. Its full of drama and lots more. Waaaahh!!! Matti!!!

I'll post something different in my next post in about five minutes alright. Bye!