Thursday, November 30

ONE

There are lots of ONEs in my life today... and I really don't know why.

1) Today was my 1st day to buy a gift for Christmas. And to whom is that gift for? That's a secret.

1.5) I only bought 1 gift!

2) Today, only 1 level was increased in my o2jam player.

3) It was my 1st time to go out to the mall this 3rd term.

4) I shared 1 secret to a friend.

5) I cried ONCE today.

6) I did 1 video presentation.

7) I downloaded 1 movie (Zathura).

8) I bought my 1st ever "Yabang Pinoy" bracelet.

9) I got 1 sticker from Starbucks (only 7 to go).

10) Its officially 1 year since I joined the choir (actually 1 year and 3 days. November 27 to be exact.)

and 10) I only thought about ONE person the whole day... and that was........

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I want to know the truth. I want to know you deepest feelings. I already poured everything out of me; my friends, my family, my lovelife, my secrets. And what do I have? NOTHING. I just want to know who that person really is. I want to know you. I told you that I like you. But is that it? Just leave it there like nothing even happened. I feel hurt that this "stage-play" between you and me is happening. I don't want to end up wherein the girl leaves the boy alone and the boy kills himself in desperation. I don't want that. I think of you each night. I cried over you for the longest time. I really don't know what I am feeling right now. I even don't know who I really like. I just feel confused. I like you perhaps. But is there anything else?

I know you can't talk about that right now. I understand your decision. I just want to know the truth. I want to know who that special person is. I know that there's this some other guy and I know that you like him more than anyone else. But I really don't know if that's the case. Maybe there's been a change of heart? Maybe not. I just want to be sure with everything. I don't know if I could live thinking each day who you really like. I can't cry every night thinking about you.

I told you last night that I will take care of you and I will not allow you to feel sad about anything, remember? I am always here thinking that you are fine and happy with what's going on with your life. I'll protect you and never make you cry. I'll always be here beside you. I don't want to see you cry and I'll make sure that you don't cry.

Gracias tanto, yo le veré pronto. Te amo.